I honestly was so anxious in the lead up to the hospital admission. I had prepared myself for the worst, not because I am a pessimist, but because I don’t think I could have handled the disappointment if I had let myself believe she would not be allergic anymore. Realistically, I knew that if she didn’t pass it this time, there was still plenty of time for her to be able to grow out of it and I had resigned myself to the idea that she would still be allergic.